I'm crazy!

It's official folks- I'm crazy. I ordered my personal training text and DVD and paid for my test which is scheduled for Dec 5,6,7. I say I am crazy because I have only allowed myself 2.5 weeks to read 14 chapters! I wanted to be ready for the new years resolutioners but man- it's gonna take a miracle for me to pass this test so soon- I can't even get thru chapter 2 and I've been trying for two days to have time to sit and read with no interruptions. I started my job with the YMCA last Monday and my duties are to be available to people to show them how to use the workout equipment if they need help (Two nights a week, three hrs). Anyway- my job is somewhat boring right now- so much so I can bring my text book with me and study a bit while I stand around as a wall flower smiling at people who are trying like crazy to be fit and healthy. I saw a young girl the other day using one of the weight machines and she was using it ALL wrong but I was too chicken to go tell her- didn't want her to be embarrassed- I decided I better tell her next time I see her-I'm sure she has never had anyone show her and my thought is- if you are going to bother to come in you probably want it to do some good- so, it's my job to keep her from hurting herself, benefit her workout and maybe pick up a future customer. I really am excited about this opportunity. I know it makes me want to start my running again- to get in even better shape- Running is a great calorie burner and it's awesome for the legs- so, I have a new attitude about it- I AM GOING TO LIKE IT! Wish me luck. I decided this after taking a boot camp aerobic class the other day- these ladies were all in better shape than me- better legs, better arms, better lung strength...I was totally frustrated by the time I finished. I was comparing myself to them and thinking- how can I be a trainer if I don't even look as fit as they do and I can barely run around the building two times? After some supportive advice and self chatting- I am all better- I am ME and if I can't turn off EVIL HEAD CHIC when I need to, I won't be an effective trainer to others- so- I am done with EHC- she can go live in the dark- I am who I am- I will do what I can to be healthier and happier at my own pace. So- now I am training my lungs again to withstand a mile, then two, then three and maybe I'll do another 5K or 10K or half marathon! Who knows. Jayme wants me to go with her to San Francisco next October with LLS again- we'll see. Sounds like fun. LOVE TO ALL!