Beginning again

A new blog to log my progress on my latest challenge to myself. Working in Mosinee at Snap Fitness now as a Trainer and I still have the same stupid 10 pounds I had in Oklahoma. Very aggravating. I have no one but myself to blame simply because I have been so bad at watching my intake of calories- and not working out as much or as hard as I need to- I wish I could figure out why I am unable to find the person in me who lost 20 lbs in my 20's- the person in me who was so motivated and strict and could actually do a 2x's a day shake and one meal diet- I can't stand that now- I have to chew something and I don't say no to eating out either- usually I order fairly safe but you and I both know- there's a lot more calories than meets the eye. Anyway- I am now 40 and age only makes weight loss more difficult. My new challenge is to lose weight before Christmas-which is when I see all of my extended family again- I changed it up a bit to not focus so much on the weight loss as on the exercising- in other words- I challenge myself to 5 days a week instead of 3 or 4. 5 days that include cardio in all days and weights in 2 of the 5.
Cardio has to be 30 min on weight days and 45-60 min on cardio only days. On cardio only days I have to do cardio bursting to intesify the workout. I think just by adding a day each week, I will feel smaller and will begin to see a difference. Ok- get this- here I am, the Personal Trainer and my "body fat percentage" in on the high end- maybe even slidding a bit into the "overweight" zone.
That's really uncool- I need to be able to get my body fat down to be an inspiration to others- at least in my professional opinion I do. So- here I go on my new journey- I will do a weigh in next week and see if it has gone down from a month ago. Pray for me- I need all help I can get.

"GENESIS PURE...they're on to something good"!

"Go-Yin" A Genesis Pure product:

- I have gone thru two bottles in two weeks b/w Don and I. I love Go-Yin. I feel great! Don even commented that I have been showing my smart side a lot more lately..ha ha. It goes with the "clear thinking" that people have felt using Go-Yin. I might have to start wearing my glasses all the time if I am going to be so smart.

I will take the cleanse for the rest of my life if it means I can have dairy. Dairy is just more calories that I have been living without so I won't be going nuts but you have no idea how often you go somewhere and they are offering only a dish covered in cheese or cream this or that and the lactose pills- really don't do the trick for me. Life is WAY safer and better for my gut now.

I messed up today- I already ate breakfast and I forgot to measure and weigh first. So- I will have to lay out my tape measure for tomorrow morning to get a read. I did good yesterday with my eating- I need to look up caloric totals for whole fruit- I ate some strawberries and blueberries yesterday and an apple and have no idea the calories on those- so, I couldn't get my complete calories for yesterday but I think I was close to my 1200/day. Hopefully. I planted a bunch of flowers yesterday- that was my workout- not really a good cardio sorce but my arms and back are sore today. Today I will do 30min. cardio and 30 min. of legs. To stay on my plan I will need to do cardio and weights Sat and just cardio Sunday. I am trying (and have been trying) for a while to work out 6 days a week- adding a day to help carve off the last few pounds. I only weigh 125 but at 5' every little wrinkle of fat shows. Some of you think I am obsessive and I probably am- a little but, it's really important to me to be in my best form so that I can share my experiences of success with my clients. It is easier to tell someone else how to lose weight if you have done it yourself. Well, I'm off to an appointment with the tredmill.....

Grumpy

Woke up today when my daughter tapped my shoulder to tell me she had had a little accident....in our bed!! YUCK! This was at 6am so you can imagine how happy I was to get up and clean up- oh well, accidents happen. it's funny- I was praying yesterday telling God I was feeling kind of useless- that I needed to feel needed....I think he is a joker cuz I was certainly "needed" today. I have done pretty good this week so far. I notice if I drink two shakes a day- I need to include some snacks between to keep me from going nuts and hanging out in front of the pantry. (Again this is due to my need to physically chew something??? Isn't there some Freudian thing with that behavior?) I am trying to do a protein with a carb. Last night I was dying for something sweet...I started to walk to the pantry and stopped- I caught a glimpse of my little sticky that says "what do you want to look like in two weeks?" (I answered that with..."I just want to look better, to see improvements!") I was having a sweet fit so, I just grabbed an orange and ate that instead- then I left the kitchen. I was proud of myself for passing on the cookies. Alex and I picked strawberries at the local berry farm yesterday and I found a recipe for strawberry bread in my grandmother's church cookbook- I can't wait to whip it up and see how it is. Of course- I will eat one slice and WALK AWAY! I also need to make banana nut bread to use up the really ripe banana's so I think I will take a loaf to the neighbors. Especially since he is fixing something for me. Anyway- I'm grumpy because I got up too early but I am feeling on track and I am going to work really hard at not letting my mood go further south- turn that frown upside down right?

a few inches gone, a few gained?

Ok- so last week I did measurements for a starting point. Last week I tried to drink two shakes a day and of course drink my Go-Yin, Fusion & Cleanse- mixing it with OJ does the trick-except today I realized I was adding 110 cal. in 8oz of OJ- so I will use half as much to keep the calories down. I only worked out one day last week-(I have to admit this as a reminder to me of my laziness) most of the week I had one shake for breakfast then I'd alternate on some days having two shakes- otherwise I'd eat a low-cal lunch and then a healthy dinner- chicken or fish or veggie spaghetti w/wheat noodles. Anyway- then the weekend came along and I acted rather stupid- had a couple beers Friday while golfing and then ate chicken quesadilla for dinner(not too bad except I needed salad more) then Sat. we went to an outdoor concert-ate(forgive me) McDonalds twice that day and had a BBQ pork sandwich at the concert-two more beers- all of those rediculous empty calories!!! I was really disappointed in my lack of control- I mean- I could have skipped the cinnamon rolls since I had already had a shake that morning- then I could have ordered a grilled chicken wrap instead of fries, and southern chicken sandwich but I caved- I admit it- I am normal- and not good at passing on the bad stuff. Even with all of that- I took my measurements and didn't have a weight loss but had a little loss on the hips, belly and thighs- some how my arms grew and my calves too??? BACK TO IT- so far this week, I posted little notes to myself around the house "IS IT WORTH IT TO EAT THAT AND RUIN YOUR HARD WORK?", or "WHAT DO YOU WANT TO LOOK LIKE IN TWO WEEKS?" etc. Then I put a sheet on the fridge to chart my calories-a food journal- and lastly I have worked out two days this week- plan to do that 5 days a week. Have had two shakes a day too-breakfast and lunch but I am including my snacks between so I don't binge eat- PB and an apple, 1 egg omlet with cheese, nuts and berries, etc.( not all at once :-0) Hopefully, next week I will have more losses. Today I weighed a pound less too- so maybe the cleansing took care of the McDonalds...ha ha

A new beginning

Ok- so last time I was on here we weren't moving- however, as of June we are happy new residents in Wisconsin. I am getting settled in. Haven't finished hanging pictures yet or putting in all the landscaping, or mowing the other 4 acres but hey- time is my friend-hopefully and if not- well, once the cold sets in I will have plenty of time to hang those pictures cuz I don't see myself hanging outside in the frigid -20! As of the 12th of June I began using Genesis Pure- a liquid form of vitamins and minerals and acai berries, noni berries and all that-plus an herbal cleanse. Ok- so I didn't have any expectations- I took it because a friend asked me to- she was having more energy and overall felt good, mentally focused etc. Anyway- I can truly say I was shocked! Not only did I notice definate energy without caffeine- but I can actually eat cheese, ice cream and even cheesecake again!!! I have been lactose intolerant since Blake was born and I ate ICE CREAM- the real thing last weekend for the first time in at least 12 years!!!! Folks- I don't need the calories that come with dairy but it was so nice to have the opportunity to just enjoy it for a moment. I ordered more and now I am getting Don started on it. I don't know if I can get him to take the cleanse because-truly if you don't choke it down mixed with OJ and chase it with more OJ it is pretty nasty- I hear they have it in pill form so maybe he can try that- either way- he already said he can feel the difference in only one day. So- I am going to keep logging my progress and experiences and see what else comes. I just started on the weight loss shakes today- they are more gritty than Herbalife but they are ok- I did feel like I ate a little more today- I think it's the metality of I drank two meals now I need to chew-so tomorrow I need to be in better control. I plan to keep this up for the next two weeks and do a new weigh in and measure- wish me luck!

BACK TO MY HUMAN FORM

Today I went back to work at the YMCA. I was a bit nervous as if it was my first day but I was really glad to be back at real life again. When I got there, I had about 5 phone calls to return for people who wanted orientations and two for trainers. I scheduled the orientations so far but I need to get thru those before I start training. My main concern is that I am still limited to what I can lift and perform -my tailbone is sore and my back needs adjusted. So, it might be tough demonstrating exercises. The other underlying reason is I am scared- scared like a little kid who was left at the gas station in Colorado during a family potty break. Funny story- ask my mom...ha ha. All the folks who know me tell me I will do great, that I shouldn't have any worries but, I hate to disappoint and especially if I am getting paid. So- once I get my feet wet again with the orientations, I think I will feel more confident to be an active trainer.
At this point, it's one day at a time. Before I know it- I'll be 6 months into my new career.

On the homefront- Don is still searching but getting closer to going back to work- he has a few options and we just want to make sure we pick the right one- the one God has lined up for us.
All the prayers you guys have said on our behalf are so appreciated and obviously the ones for me were answered cuz I'm Ok!

Oh happy day

I woke up in a great mood today without a headache or ooey belly so it is a great day. I read a post of a fellow blogger yesterday and it hit my whole attitude on the nose. Yesterday was a rediculous day because I was totally caught up in my own pitty party. No balloons or anything- just me and my alter ego- Bette the bad girl. ( I got the alter ego idea from another persons very humorous blogging- she calls her's Garbage girl which is perfect. ) Anyway- Bette was telling me what a loser I was since I couldn't ride in a car or do a bunch of things around the house- she kept saying that my husband was looking at me thinking "There she is again- watching tv sitting on her butt being a lazy wife!" She made me feel guilty and told me that I was letting people down since I couldn't help with the tutoring at the grade school or help in the library at the middle school or drive my kids to school or go back to work....yadda yadda yadda- just all junk.
I hate Bette- she's mean. But fortunatley today Bette is tucked away deep in my head hopefully to never return. I was feeling so good today that I even perfomed a very easy workout. I walked a bit on the tredmill and lifted a few weights and did situps on the ball. All without breaking a sweat but feeling like I at least had my big toe in the workout door. And I have been praying like crazy to get well- lots of you have been praying for me and I am so greatful. Maybe, just maybe God thinks I have rested enough and am ready to work again. Let's hope. Blessings to all and many happy thoughts-

A few funnies

While we were on our ski trip Alex took ski school and learned a few things- but before she did we played around a bit and she showed her stuff! also- Brandon was a bit unsure on his skiis so- a short video clip reveals his skiing techniques as well.

I PASSED

It's official folks! I did it! I believed I had a chance at passing the Pers. Train. test and I did it!!!!
I was actually surprised when the results came in. I had a small voice in the back of my head saying....well, maybe you didn't do so well.....yadda yadda yadda- But the bigger more positive voice was right! I passed and now I can start signing folks up to find better health and fitness. I'm excited. However- I am not able to even ride in a car right now. After getting hit in the tailbone with a ski lift chair- I have been suffering severe headaches (I know the butt and head thing doesn't make since). After a few x-rays the doctors determined the tailbone is fine but that I must have given myself a concussion either from another fall or the jolting I got caused me to thrash around enough to shake my brain. Maybe the ol' noggin was in need of a good shakin? Anyway- today is the first day in 9 days that I have been drug free- up til now I had been taking some serious pain killers to manage the pain- then I'd get all nauseous and feel like sleeping all day. It's been tough since I HATE being down. I have been lucky enough that my husband and mom could be here to help out. That's the other thing- On Monday this week, Don lost his job. Pretty crazy huh? Mom flew up to help out and just left today- was nice having her here to help me. Don has actually been in good spirits- he's been taking the kids to school - he's had fun playing with Alex and getting her ready for school. And he's trying to find a new job here in Oklahoma. Cross your fingers and pray a bunch that we can stay here- we really have found a home here in Edmond and I would hate to leave. But I also know- we need to eat and if that means moving then we move. I cringe at the thought of packing up again- yuck! Anyway- I believe God made things work out this way- if Don had been working this week he couldn't have been home to help take care of me and the kids and I really think God has a bigger better plan for us. So- with that in mind- I will continue to pray and wait for what God has in store.