Yes I am still alive

You might be wondering where I went for like, three weeks...I was here just not blogging. I got pretty busy and by the time my day settled down I just wanted to melt into the pillow. I made it thru the first phase of p90X! I am now on month two! Last week was my down week- that means you don't lift weights, you just do mostly cardio and yoga. I have to admit- I am NOT a yoga lover. I am only able to be in yoga mode for an hour and sometimes that is REALLY hard to do. The yoga moves are challenging and I honestly do feel more flexible but- it is so low key and mellow that I feel like I should be doing something else the whole time- anything that is productive- even pulling weeds! But-as I said-I do feel better. I am adding in chest workouts into this months plan-well-I'm not adding it- p90x makers added it. I am sore already- I felt like I had rubber arms after the workout yesterday. I have never done so many push-ups in one setting in my life. I used to pride myself on doing "real" push-ups, not girly ones. However, I had to go to my knees to finish. I vaguely recall praying while I was down there too! "Lord, help me be able to move my arms today". I mean, seriously- how many women do you know that can do plyo push ups or one armed push ups? Well, I am not one of those women...yet. I did not lose pounds during the past month which annoyed the heck out of me but I think I did lose inches somewhere because shorts from last year fit better. I mostly ate from the p90x menu- it is good , normal food that isn't hard to make or find ingredients for. The family ate most of what I fed them off the plan. They weren't too keen on the gezpacho, aspargus soup or cold cucumber soup. All of the soups are puree'd so- kind of looks like baby food but tastes good. I think I will alter it a bit and leave some parts chunky for texture. Especially the asparagus soup. I am beginning a new diet today- two shakes a day as meal replacements and one sensible dinner (that means I shouldn't cook up some chocolate covered donuts with a side of ice cream) and some 150 cal or less snacks during the day. I have used it before and it works- my only issue is that I really like to chew food and I have learned so much about how to cook and eat healthy that I talk myself into blowing off the shake for a tuna wrap or something more exciting- it's healthy but it means I broke my plan and I HATE when I do that. You should come live in my head sometime- it's loaded with guilt from constantly caving in to cravings. Oh well- it's kept me mostly in shape since my 20's and I think that's something to be proud of. I think I will hang on to that thought today. Look how far I have come since high school with my fitness. Comparably- I think I look pretty good. BRING IT!