Are you kidding? Again?

Yep- here I am again...only 7 months later since my last post(frown). I am still in the same stupid weight boat-same body fat however- I did improve on one thing- I do exercise more days a week- I am generally doing 6 days- not always kicking my butt with the cardio tho so- need to fix that. I have decided to try P90X. I have it- might as well give it a whirl. It's only 90 days- that can't be impossible. I can handle the work outs pretty good so far- I have tried a few of them- I look like a goofball doing the Kenpo karate but I definately feel it the next day- so- mastering the diet. All day long I tell people what to do to lose weight but- I don't stick to it myself- I eat really healthy- grilled not fried, frozen or fresh veggies- fruit everyday- etc- protein shakes yadda yadda yadda- so what's my hang up? Eating too many calories for the weight loss- I guess. I haven't lost any pounds but feel like I am eating more controlled. After dinner is my down fall- I do ok at dinner and but then I want something sweet- once I cross that line I am on a frenzy of carb overload or sweet overload. So- I guess I have to just decide to avoid the after dinner anything. I can do it. It isn't like I will starve. Just gotta change the way I think. I hereby name today the first day of my p90x diet and workouts-officially. I am going to attempt to keep a blog diary of my moods, progressfall backs, etc on here. I need to make this happen for my own self esteem. I need to know I can motivate myself to help me motivate others. Maybe, if I get in really great shape, I will be tempted to sign up for a body competition. What a trip that would be ...at my age! Ha! Ok DeDe- no more excuses, no more eating the junk- time to stick to your guns. It's only 90 days!!!